1 hour and 33minutes until I can leave this sodding place. The boredom sets in on a Friday, all day I wait for 5pm, no one works on a Friday in this place.
Normally I'm dying for a drink by 2pm, not today, I'm tired and absolutely skint. I mean I work all week every week but as the end of the month approaches I run out of money and then can't even enjoy myself after a solid week of shit. How does that work. How long do I have to do this routine? I want more, I want to be more and I want to enjoy life. I don't want to dread every Monday morning. I fall into a deep depression each Sunday at 4pm, knowing that after dinner it is nearly time for bed which means it's back to work, again.
What is the point. How do people get these amazing jobs? Where are they advertised?
Friday 27 June 2008
Thursday 26 June 2008
I'm new to 'Blogging', I find it intriguing. So many people have them now, but what do people find interesting to read.
I'm going to treat this like a diary of my life for as long as I need to. I may or may not write everyday, it's almost like therapy.
I woke up this morning after a dream about someone other than the person sleeping next to me. It was so real that I had a shock he was there.
Dreams have the ability to tease us, they make fake real.
He has been dreaming too, but his are more elaborate, he dreams like an epic movie full of wonderful and weird characters.
I'm going to treat this like a diary of my life for as long as I need to. I may or may not write everyday, it's almost like therapy.
I woke up this morning after a dream about someone other than the person sleeping next to me. It was so real that I had a shock he was there.
Dreams have the ability to tease us, they make fake real.
He has been dreaming too, but his are more elaborate, he dreams like an epic movie full of wonderful and weird characters.
Wednesday 25 June 2008
Problems
Everyone has them. But what is a problem to you?
Is it a problem that your boyfriend went to the pub tonight? How are you going to find the money for next month's rent? Are you ever going to come to terms with the loss of someone you love.
Each of these have been a problem for me, some MUCH MUCH smaller than others, but the good news is they are no longer problems. They are past problems and in their place I have new ones. They appear and you spend minutes, hours, months or years worrying about them, and then they are gone, they are solved, you just deal with them. So why waste so much energy on each one in the first place?
Because it makes us better people, because it's how you learn to deal with life, but they take up so much energy.
I feel tired.
Is it a problem that your boyfriend went to the pub tonight? How are you going to find the money for next month's rent? Are you ever going to come to terms with the loss of someone you love.
Each of these have been a problem for me, some MUCH MUCH smaller than others, but the good news is they are no longer problems. They are past problems and in their place I have new ones. They appear and you spend minutes, hours, months or years worrying about them, and then they are gone, they are solved, you just deal with them. So why waste so much energy on each one in the first place?
Because it makes us better people, because it's how you learn to deal with life, but they take up so much energy.
I feel tired.
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